I have a cold. I wish it was that simple. I wish I could go back to a time when I got a cold, took something, and went about my day. But now, my body makes it into this biiggg production. Everything about it seems a bit worse, and then some other random MS symptoms decide to join the party too. If anything is ever going to be quick to jump on a bandwagon, it’s the awful ache I get in my legs. It’s rather annoying and makes wearing pants tough. Granted it’s not even close to how it was last year during my relapse, at that time nothing could even touch me. Brutal. But this just comes and goes during my day, as if to say ‘hi! It’s your MS here! Remember me?’ Even when I’m not sick, this happens on occasion, but much more frequently when I’m not feeling the greatest.
So, yet again, a week off from working out. I’m think I’m starting to get used to this on and off thing I’ve got going, or at least I should be by now. Last month I had restarted my 5-3-1 training program, and found comfort in the routine I knew. But as I did a few months ago, I have found myself wondering about my goals in the weight lifting world and if they are realistic. I’ve always wanted to gain strength and muscle, but it seems as though my bodies inability to keep to a schedule might hinder those goals. So I find myself asking, is that what I really want? This has been a major part of my identity for awhile, I can’t imagine giving it up. But my body doesn’t want to cooperate so often, it’s hard to put anything into practice. Maybe a months worth of programming isn’t the way to go right now. Maybe I need to just do what I can from week to week, or even day to day. 5-3-1, I’ll come back for you.