Today I start back at my Muay Thai classes (hopefully) if my body and migraines cooperate. It’s been a month since I’ve done ANY physical activity, that’s been hard. I’m used to doing Muay Thai 2 days a week and lifting 2 days a week. But when a relapse hits, and solu medrol is the answer, I can’t even imagine working out. Even making coffee is a struggle! So it’s about time I feel up to getting back to normal routines and workouts. But what is normal these days? Is there a ‘normal’? The idea of normal has morphed over the past several years. Normal seems to be unusual, unpredictable, unnerving. Everything that the word normal usually isn’t. As I continue to think about it, normal sounds scary. But am I scared everyday? I don’t think so. I don’t wake up scared to face the day. Do I get scared sometimes during weaker moments? (Yes, I guess I have those) Sure I do. But I don’t, and can’t live every moment scared. My boyfriend asked me a question like that recently, aren’t you scared everyday? No, I’m not. Yes, I think about MS everyday, because in some way or another it impacts me everyday now. But no, I’m not scared everyday. Sure I think about the future sometimes and what it could bring, and that is scary to me. But I hope there never comes a day when I wake up scared to face the day. That’s when this disease would win.